KILLING SENSIBILITY

I wanted to talk myself out of following my dreams tonight. I had every reason to just quit and to make a more "rational" choice.  

There are two voices that speak to me in my mind. The first one is practical. It tells me to play it safe and to think of stability and assurances. This voice is not evil but it kills dreams (or at the very least, my dreams). The words of what should be ring in my head constantly.

The other voice is impractical. It tells me to dream and to not let any practical thing like money and security stop me. Satisfaction with a solid routine and a sure thing is non-existent. It is not an evil voice either but it kills normalcy and a certain future. The words of what could be ring in my head constantly.

Both of these voices are speaking to me and the rational speaks louder than my impractical voice. 

But.

Louder does not equal better though. That quieter voice still speaks through to me even when it seems to be drowned out at times. This is why I choose it. Not all of the time but it is why I choose it now.  I am about to embark on a dream and I need to have that voice be my closest guide as I move away from the stable into the unknown. Walking blindly, I am turning away from the light of certainty into the dark fray of questions.

The rational voice is a good one. It can keep us safe from harm. It can provide us with much needed perspective and reason. There are many things that it brings to us that are good but it does not bring one particular item: Our dreams coming true.

I am chasing a dream and so I have to turn the volume down on rationale and turn up the volume on uncertainty. It's difficult but it's worth it.

I think. It's unknown at this time but isn't that the point? In order to succeed in this chase, I have to kick my doubts to the curb and embrace the unbelievable truth. It's not safe but really, it never is.

That's the adventure and I'm game for it.